No cracks at all." And yet a deeply fractured boy lay under that facade; a witness to all of his family's attempts at a better life as well as to their deep bitterness when those efforts failed and their dreams proved unattainable.As each small disappointment wore on his family, ultimately ripping them apart, it also furthered Jahar's own disintegration – a series of quiet yet powerful body punches. "I knew this kid, and he was a good kid," Payack says, sadly.He was also "just a normal American kid," as his friends described him, who liked soccer, hip-hop, girls; obsessed over Payack stared at his TV, trying to reconcile Dzhokhar, the bomber accused of unspeakable acts of terrorism, with the teenage boy who had his American nickname "Jahar" inscribed on his wrestling jacket. That afternoon, Payack spoke with CNN, where he issued a direct appeal. He'd been wounded just after midnight in a violent confrontation with police that had killed his 26-year-old brother, Tamerlan.For the next 18 hours, he would lie quietly in the boat, as the dawn broke on a gray day and thousands of law-enforcement officials scoured a 20-block area in search of him.
It had been the coach who'd helped Jahar come up with his nickname, replacing the nearly impossible-to-decipher with a simpler and cooler-sounding rendering.
He was found just after 6 p.m., though it would take nearly three more hours for FBI negotiators to persuade him to surrender.
The following morning, Payack received a text from one of the agents with the FBI's Crisis Negotiating Unit. "Maybe by telling Jahar that I was thinking about him, it gave him pause," Payack says.
"To think that a kid we mentored and loved like a son could have been responsible for all this death. It was like an alternative reality."People in Cambridge thought of 19-year-old Dzhokhar Tsarnaev – "Jahar" to his friends – as a beautiful, tousle-haired boy with a gentle demeanor, soulful brown eyes and the kind of shy, laid-back manner that "made him that dude you could always just vibe with," one friend says.
He had been a captain of the Cambridge Rindge and Latin wrestling team for two years and a promising student. Please turn yourself in."At that precise moment, just west of Cambridge, in suburban Watertown, Jahar Tsarnaev lay bleeding on the floor of a 22-foot motorboat dry-docked behind a white clapboard house.
Though Islam is the dominant religion of the North Caucasus, religion played virtually no role in the life of Anzor Tsarnaev, a tough, wiry man who'd grown up during Soviet times, when religious worship in Kyrgyzstan was mostly underground.